right now its 2:53 in the morning and i cant sleep so i figured id hop on. talk about news. slowly getting my life together,its been tough lately but im pulling through.been trying to keep myself busy to keep my mind off of things. iv been drawing alot lately but iv been writing more lately tho. this summer has been interesting per say but its for the best i suppose. me and bri.broke up awhile ago b/c she needed to get settled down but lately weve been talking alot lately and becoming closer then i have ever been with someone . shes just so easy to talk to and have fun with,even to mess around with heh. iv been playing my bass alot lately,progressing everyday,hoping to get a show in sometime this summer.iv been looking for colleges iv found one i really want to go to in new york. but idk if i can get in but im gonna try my hardest. life has been pretty hectic b/c of stuff but its calming down. missing alot of people and hope to see them soon to maybe motivate me to draw more and such. i know most of this has nothing to do with this site but OWELL, iv been falling away from alot of people b/c im afraid to hurt them.im slowly starting to become my old goofy self,in acouple of weeks im getting my new dog shes shepard/husky/assuie i cant wait to get her,her name is "diana" but i really dont like that name if you guys can think of something let me know. she has one brown and blue eye and looks like a black wolf,ill be sure to get pics up of her when i get her. im dying my hair again here soon bri. said shell do it so im waiting for her to come over to do it. iv lost friends and gained new ones over the summer so far,life has been ok but not the best tring so hard to keep my insanity. i hope to see dan here soon and maybe disappear for a while i need to get away from here and make a new life. i can only hope for the best but lately i havnt seen it. i guess ill stop ranting about how bad my life is so yea expect writings/pictures/drawing up here soon enough.

josh "shadow grave" summers